Five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure? Measure a year?
In cups of coffee,
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife
In five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in a life?
-Seasons of Love-
2020. I think this is the third post I am raving about 2020. What we got? COVID19, Joe Biden as the new US president, George Floyd shooting, Omnibus Law in Indonesia, Sean Connery’s Death, PlayStation 5. There are friends who lost their beloved family and friend due to COVID19 and I want to share my deepest condolences through this post for them. May love heal.
There are things happening and viral. As we are staying at the same routine, same place, same people, time passed faster during pandemic. Although I am mostly in confinement, I tried to gain many achievements and making memories as much as I could, so I don’t want to pass the year without any positive gain after getting so many sicknesses and crises. Maybe this year, I cannot get achievements as much as previous year or work according to the plan I made earlier. I have to change the plan and prioritize what’s important and what’s not. I started to accept the situation and get used to the new habit. So here are things that I learn, that I remember, that I promise, that I wish.
I am quiet a competitive person. I used to aim the ability to memorize date, periodic table, and mathematics formula. Although it is permissible to not memorize everything, but it gives me good feeling to be able memorize everything. Even now I still admire that ability. As I grow older, I am no longer in need to memorize things. I want to remember the voice of my favorite persons, the smoothness of my dogs fur, the smell of my grandma’s cooking and the best and bitter moment with my family and friends.
The last time I talked with my grandma, at the age of 80’s, while her sight is already blurry, her movement is also limited, her ability to remember family’s name remains strong. That is more impressive than the ability to remember the periodic table.
Surprise, I’m married. Didn’t I say I have to change our plan?
Our wedding far from how we want our wedding to be. We cannot invite people we love. We cannot have any celebration like normal wedding. Nonetheless, it was a beautiful small wedding with Christmas theme at home. Above them all, I am happy to be married with a man that has beautiful heart. He is a good son, good brother, good friend and good man to me. Aside of his intelligence, I love his supportive and kind nature. He is really a good teammate. My life is in ease with him around. Our personalities are compatible, our strengths are complimentary. We have same vision, same taste, same humor. It was not a difficult decision when he offered a marriage.
Everyday, I imagined that Today is my last day of working. Hence, it makes me always be careful on handling my money. I make a strategy to not spoiling my money impulsively. Pandemic makes me able to save some money. I don’t need to spend money on transportation, fuel and parking fee (Gosh! this impacts my balance unbelievably so much!) Surprisingly, I am financially more secured in 2020 although we had wedding that usually splurging a lot of money excessively. We cut the budget on DJ/band, MC, event (cutting wedding cake, couple games, tea ceremony, etc.), venue rental and even bridal veil. We mostly allocated the budget on food, decoration, documentation and wedding organizer. Thankfully, my decision on purchasing apartment two years earlier was smart enough that helps us from struggling further financially like the majority of newly-wed-couples.
Instead of going to mall, we visit our family on weekend, celebrate birthday at home, playing with our dogs or play Jackbox and Among Us with our friends. Since we stuck together, I talked to my old friends from high school, university, and travelling friends who are staying at different countries. We share what we feel, how our government act, how family are. This sharing feeling is really helping us feeling ease. Although I cannot meet my friends directly, they are always checking out my condition, sending me gifts and food and even arranging my bridal party online. They are always be there for me. I really don’t know what I did to deserve their love.
I finished reading about 20 books and more, watching at least 5 TV-series (my favorite so far Peaky Blinders, the Umbrella Academy and Money Heist) and some educational youtube channel (we’re mostly enjoying ourselves watching Nigel Ng’s Uncle Roger Sketch and TwoSetViolin), making at least 5 drawings and few arts, practicing languages and playing chess. I read so many good books this year, that I cannot decide which is the best. But most likely, Jane Eyre becomes my best book I read this year.
I feel so lucky. While the condition is leading to massive unemployment, I still have my job. While many people cannot work at home in pandemic that generating more cases, my company allows us to work at home. While it is getting recession, I still have my salary and bonus without reduction. I feel safe and remain productive. The activities in my company is changing drastically. We shifted from visiting customer to training engineers and remote support. The new product is now mostly adapted for pandemic situation. This year I supervised my team on APPCON (my company annual competition on presenting product application in our customer production line). I previously the one who joined the competition, this time is the first time I am mentoring a team in participating APPCON and they won as the first runner-up. I feel like a proud mother that I cannot stop feeling happy for their achievement.
I got Dengue Fever last April, it was traumatizing enough, but the rest is good. Never overestimate your health. My physical, emotional and mental state are at the best.
I know I have a lot of wishes that I want to fulfill. But if I can get an instant wish from a wishing well or shooting star, I realized what I want most: to meet my sister. I miss my sister. Everyday, I got motivated to work so I can finally get vaccinated and meeting friends and family, especially my sister. We usually go on vacation once a year together with friends or with family, but thanks to COVID we cannot have it this year. Not having a quality time together with her somehow makes me feel incomplete. She even did not attend my wedding. Nonetheless, I am still glad she is right now in a healthy condition and unaffected by COVID19 although she is mostly working at the place that potentially has a COVID19 threat.